I’m having one of those moments where I am feeling very jaded. It’s not about anything important, or in general about life, just specifically, about the talent agency that Summit is being represented by now.
“What Heidi, what are you saying?!” you ask incredulously, amazed that I have become one of ‘them’, you know, psycho-controlling stage parents. Well, yeah… not yeah, like I’m agreeing with you, more of I don’t know what to say. This really isn’t me. I think what it comes down to is just all the people that have told me that Summit needs to perform and needs an agent and he really loves all the attention. I just finally did something about it.
I am honored, flattered, thrilled…. and all of it just seems like a huge racket to me. They told me that “the board” had picked Summit out of about 30 children to be in their “top 12”. They said some very nice things about him, true things, like how they liked his expressions and ability to perform, but there is that jaded side of me that thinks they are trying to trick me. That they don’t really think my little boy is precious, they just want money. Which, is a little paranoid because Summit has to have a composite card made regardless if he is to be picked if we want to continue this direction, it’s standard show biz I’ve been told, and other than that cost, there is nothing else. So, why am I assuming the worst? It just seems so fake, so cheesy, so everything that I usually hate. I think every word is out of their mouth is a lie… Perhaps its my defensive mechanism that doesn’t want to get hurt. I don’t want them to say they like Summit just to get my money, but even though that doesn’t seem like the case, I am still am holding them at arms length. I think it is also, I know he isn’t a Gerber baby with googily eyes and perfect features, I think he is the most adorable looking baby ever- but also he does have Williams Syndrome so I wonder sometimes how distinct his features are. So, I don’t know. We shall see then, shan’t we??? 