Do you ever think about doing crazy things when people are talking to you? I’m going to shoot myself in the foot here by even talking about this but sometimes when someone is talking to me (mostly serious conversations, especially in interviews) I think stuff like “what if I throw up all over them right now?” or “what if I just start screaming?” That is how I feel when I talk politics with people too, when they get really uptight and angry… it’s so funny, I can’t even think about what they are saying, but my face stays straight. If there’s one thing I have learned, it’s that people on a soapbox don’t like being laughed at. I know. I hate it when it happens to me. I’m on a great rant about something and then it’s like POOF! Let’s pop your bubble.
I came across the verse the other day, “Respect those in Authority”… yada yada. So my thought was: How come a lot of the same people, my friends, that support Obama and venomously defend him and his policies- especially on real and perceived racism (which, has been sickening realizing how NOT progressive we are) are the same people BASHING Bush? It’s so annoying. What they say about Bush is just as bad, and sometimes worse than what has been said about Obama that is so offensive to them. It’s not hard to pick on Bush now, it’s almost too easy, like picking on the handicapped kid in school. “Well, that was a little not nice, Heidi, now you are being hypocritical”, you say. Yeah, sorry about that. But none the less it’s annoying. Don’t expect others to stop what they are doing that is so offensive until you stop doing the exact same thing that is offensive to them. Isn’t there are verse about a log? in your eye?
I’m a registered Independent. I like Obama. I heard him speaking today on CNN and I though “There’s a nice guy. Very compassionate.” Then I realized what I thought. I do not know him. What a man says, especially in politics, doesn’t really let us know WHO HE IS. We get to know the heart of his speech writer perhaps. I don’t believe in him. For that matter, I believe less in John McCain. Just what I want: Another old white guy. But when I hear him (Obama) speak I fall under some sort of spell. I want to believe in him. I do. But I can’t, I don’t think he is the answer. I don’t think there is an answer. (This is too easy, I set myself up her, I have to say it!) I think Jesus is the answer! OK, OK, now that came across really religiously sarcastic which is even less funny than bad political humor. But I mean it, I do think “Jesus is the answer”, I just would never phrase it like that. How could real belief in Jesus change the face of how we perceive politics? Not just our conservative-for some of us- upbringing, but real hard core TRUTH about what is right and wrong? A lot of Jesus’ teachings come across to me… dare I say it out loud?….democratic. (Collective Gasp!)
Since I hate politics and hold Obama out like an ex-boyfriend who I still secretly like, I have to look at the issues. For me. What is important to me? No really… I’ve been in the baby game for the last 2 years, what is important to me now. My more into-politics friends start talking about foreign policy, the environment, NOT drilling in ANWAR, alternative fuels… Why dear God did I have a child???? This is depressing. The Bush bashers scream in one ear how he has destroyed the country while Glen Beck yells about Obama being a secret Arab in the other ear. I find myself overwhelmed with lack of information, general ignorance about both candidates, prejudices toward and against each nomination (both with good clear logic) in my own family, and my own moral compass which is spinning all around in circles. I fear the future, want to trust in God, and debate bringing another child into … this.
Baby, Baby, Baby, my thoughts, emotions, and heart go back to my child. My friends children, children that aren’t born. Children that won’t be born. That ah-ha! moment. Obama is for partial birth abortion. I’ve heard… this is a complete rumor… I hate repeating it… I need to google this further… that he wants to extend abortions to killing babies that have survived abortions and are still living outside of their mothers. No, that can’t be true. But partial-birth Abortions are bad enough, I think, even without my following, doubtfully true statement. I have enough information for myself. I’m not going to be intimidated by people who say.. “Oh yes. I see your point.” All the while NOT really seeing it, “I’m just going to look at ALL the issues, then decide.” Because I’m an ignorant mom who is too emotional about politics. And I am. And I don’t care. I never got the tragedy of abortion until now, and it’s haunting me.