Need I say more? I was a mess. I’ve known for almost 2 years that he’d be starting at his therapy center’s pre-school when he turned 3 but somehow the starting 2 months before his actual birthday was harder than I thought it would be!
I know its for the best, but my selfish side wants to keep him at home. It’s a humbling thing, to feel protection so strong, but know that keeping him isn’t what is best. I know some people will think I’m wrong on some level, going against my intuition as a mom and entering my impressionable child into full time pre-school so young, but what if the right outweighed the wrong, if just barely?
I don’t know what its like having a normal child. I just know what my story is, the choices I’ve had to make and dreams and hopes I’ve had to let go of.
Him starting school is one of the biggest things I’ve had to let go of. I wanted him to attend a private Christian school if he attended a school at all. I was interested in homeschooling and here I am… and I’m ok. I have actually felt a peace too, I know he’s suppose to be there. It’ll help him catch up with other kids and he loves the social interaction. He loves going, he is happy and everyone loves him. 
I’m just writing this not to whine, but to let you know that we aren’t always right as moms. We have to be flexible to what is best for our child and seek God’s will regardless of how difficult it is for us personally. I’m still working on this, obviously, and am no where close, but it’s where I am right now. It’s funny how I have so few answers lately, it’s all about waiting and praying and rambling to a close about some non-existent point I have to make… lol, forgive me, it’s been an emotional week.
