As I fought back a torrent of tears earlier I realized how little I really let myself feel these days. Sure, there's the anxiety attacks that creep up and then grab me from behind like a friend yelling, "guess who?" in a cheerily delightful voice, but I drown them out speaking truth. Some times take longer than others. I have a friend who is dying from anerexia and I haven't seen her in awhile. … [Read more...]
It's been a rough couple of weeks. Professionally and personally. I needed an escape, to be able to breath again and I fled to Colorado with Ben (and no kids- THANK YOU FAMILY) to see my sister and feel something other than stress for a few days. We drove through the night and I felt exhilarated: exhausted, stinky, delirious and ... at home. To see the peaks again from a distance was heart … [Read more...]
I've really debated on posting this. Sometimes I feel like I over share, but whatever, that's why I created this blog to begin with! :) A Sam's Club bag of Ghirardelli double chocolate bittersweet chips is an arm's length away from me. Some weeks are defined in the good, the places visited and the friends, then other weeks are defined by the poundage of chocolate ate. I've noticed that if I get … [Read more...]
For You.There are then, the days where you are empty. Sometimes I write all the beauty and fluff out of my life, gushing out what is great then I'm left with the void afterwords. I had a one of those days recently, I felt like a failure for reasons most wouldn't understand. A friend called later and we decided a walk would be just the ticket. Pouring out the waterfall of thoughts kept pinned back, … [Read more...]
