As I fought back a torrent of tears earlier I realized how little I really let myself feel these days. Sure, there's the anxiety attacks that creep up and then grab me from behind like a friend yelling, "guess who?" in a cheerily delightful voice, but I drown them out speaking truth. Some times take longer than others. I have a friend who is dying from anerexia and I haven't seen her in awhile. … [Read more...]
I knew her. I didn't actually know her, know her, but the little girl who must have been about 5 or 6 was very familiar to me. She looked at me with curious eyes, I must have seemed strange even for a stranger, staring so intently into her open face. My heart hammered from the combination of sudden adrenaline and the caffeine I had just consumed. I wanted so badly to go over to the father … [Read more...]
We went to LR Children's Hospital yesterday for another meeting with the doctors about things regarding Summit's life and such. It was pretty boring, my extensive on-line research has pretty much edge-eh-ma-cated me on all things in that dept. so this was like a review with a Q&A session afterwords. Luckily, we had already done all the required/reccomended tests on Summit so that wasn't a part of … [Read more...]
Since I've already blogged a little about all the things that are going on with Summit- by "little" I mean verbally vomited up everything that I am feeling regarding this- I feel it only fair to give you a sense of closure regarding this. Well, somewhat of a closure, more of a sense of beginning. We have a confirmed diagnosis, the lab called yesterday to tell me. Instead of 2-3 weeks, they had it … [Read more...]
