about one time a year I get what I've called into "realist mode". I guess others might call it the blues because it's not a full on depression, but about this time in most Januaries that I remember I've felt this way. Perhaps it's a post-holiday season let down, the anticipation gone and the coldest month of the year in hand, but here I'm sitting again, trying to logically strip away my … [Read more...]
Pendulums {Choosing Truth}
January 2, 2014 by · Leave a Comment
Living out loud is hard. There is so much noise out here. I've been blogging for almost 7 years and still sometimes I feel like I've entered a crowded room of people, all talking so loudly, trying to be heard above the others, and I just want to hold my hands over my ears. At the end of the day so many people want to be heard but don't have a lot to say. It's so easy to criticize and preach from … [Read more...]
this present ending
December 31, 2013 by · Leave a Comment
2013 I think it’s a good idea to process each year as it comes to a close. There is something therapeutic about it, as though I’m finally purging and moving on from a relationship that was meant to end, although I remember the good times as I digest it all. I found myself doing the shallow tally first, focusing on the wins and losses of the things that don’t matter … [Read more...]
a win
December 27, 2013 by · Leave a Comment
I did it. Barely. (Actually, kinda sorta.) OK, I'm going to claim partial victory here since it mostly was a win but I could have done better. Does this sound like a conversation that you have ever had with yourself? {So often when I try to do something, unless I do it perfectly I don't consider it much of a win.} Are you ever like that? I'm never satisfied, I'm constantly trying to … [Read more...]