Beauty from Ashes

I’ve been musing, editing and weaving this blog post for months now. It’s never seemed quite right and I’ve not been able to figure it out other than this is about Beauty from Ashes, something amazing coming from a place of darkness or death. It seems lately that most of the things I struggle with are brought to the surface, bringing to mind an obvious cliche of boiling impurities out of metals to refine them. Or regrowth after a devastating forest fire.

It seems like every step forward it met with a quick swipe at my knees knocking me over. But it’s ok. It really is. My life isn’t meant to be easy, it’s meant to be profoundly challenging and adrenaline fueled with purpose and intent.

I think I love the phrase Beauty from Ashes so much because it’s at those dark moments in my life, where I felt empty or hopeless, or simply a small chapter is closed,  that some of the most beautiful things emerge.

I’ve been devastated over the last 5 years, but out of the ashes, I feel a reawakening and soul stirring peace and life. My heart pounds with life and not fear.

I love today, I have loved this week. I will look forward even more to next week as greenery creeps back into my life even though the outside green is turning bright colors as it dies. Fitting some how and poetic even though I never understand it all.

I feel so thankful and satisfied and I drink in the moment greedily, gulping almost at the breath of life and want to store it all up for the hard days.

Bear is having surgery next week, I am worried but peaceful, please keep him in your prayers for the next week as we prepare and travel down to Little Rock.

 

  • clgossett

    I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. I love you for just being you. My prayers are with Bear for his surgery and you for always.

  • http://twitter.com/approaching_joy paige meredith

    You are super inspiring in that I have never seen you anything but “bright”. I think this is a testament to not your ability to put a mask over your sadness but a sign of your inner awesomeness.

  • TheBusyNothings

    Thank you Christy!!! You have been amazing this week and I look forward to CL’ing with you! :))

  • http://twitter.com/loveandcents Heather

    Heidi you are amazing! Beauty will continue to rise! You are a wonderful mom! Stay strong! I am praying! Trust god and trust your heart! I am so glad we have had this time to work together and become friends! I am here! You know how to reach me!

  • TheBusyNothings

    Heather, if nothing else I am SO HAPPY to meet you on the (tricky at times) Shaun White campaign! :))) You have been AMAZING! Thank you!

  • TheBusyNothings

    Paige, I look forward to hanging out again!! :) Thanks so much and seriously, I am weepy tonight. :) thanks for the suport!

  • BrandiJeter

    Heidi, many, many prayers for Bear…and you, Mama Bear.

  • http://www.facebook.com/sarea.clark Sarea Clark

    I just want to give you a hug….is that creepy? Love ya Girl!

  • TheBusyNothings

    not creepy at all! lol

  • TheBusyNothings

    Thank you so much Brandi!